好久没来痞了，虽然有几次很想写文章，但都在很累的状态下，所以就没写了，加上隔天那种心情就没了，所以很久都没update.
Anyway, 这个超级好笑！小时候我很不喜欢喊人，所以有时会听到“怎么不叫人啊”这样的评语（呛，又不是批考卷.-.）
Credits to: https://www.7headlines.com/article/show/373497257
- Jan 31 Fri 2014 23:16
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大年初一，新年快乐！
好久没来痞了，虽然有几次很想写文章，但都在很累的状态下，所以就没写了，加上隔天那种心情就没了，所以很久都没update.
Anyway, 这个超级好笑！小时候我很不喜欢喊人，所以有时会听到“怎么不叫人啊”这样的评语（呛，又不是批考卷.-.）
Credits to: https://www.7headlines.com/article/show/373497257
- Dec 30 Mon 2013 13:18
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2013年末，来整理照片咯~
考完试有一个月这么久了，这期间我都是吃喝玩乐哈哈哈哈。
hm..几个比较重要的事情就是终于和家人去旅行了，之后也和6N同学们chalet,虽然没有毕业旅行（有点遗憾），不过到本地家庭朋友式的度假村也很好玩，第一次真的觉得我们像一群朋友胜过同学哈哈。其实chalet最好玩的时候就是我们第一天晚上烧烤，还有第二天中午免费去wildwildwet玩。虽然只有7-8个人，不过这样的size真的还蛮适合出去玩的哈哈哈。可惜我们没拍照留恋啊，等到晚上吃完饭才拍了2张，而那时已经有更多人来了哈哈:P
很喜欢和家人去旅行的那个地方。是民丹岛的一个本土式的度假屋，感觉有些像较温馨和简单式的clubmed一样（没去过clubmed,但从杂志上看到的感觉它就是一个很华丽漂亮的度假屋）。度假屋真的和安静，感觉有点与世隔绝，时间静止一样。而那里也没有wifi,所以其实超好的啊，整整3天没有那种想上网看剧看到不睡觉的感觉。虽然第一天睡不着，第二天睡得超级沉，很舒服。还有chalet回来的那一天，睡得超级超级香，真的很久没有那样了哈哈。心情非常非常的愉快，轻松，好像暂时没有其他东西打扰，什么都不用想。
那么呢，接下来我就要post一些照片了。想要用来发表文章很久了，但都一直推迟哈哈哈，我真的是procrastinate女王。
- Oct 23 Wed 2013 23:11
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This year so far
My original intention was to type this in Chinese, but I decided I would probably just employ a mix of both.
Okay, so I went for mfa internship interview today.
Thought I would set myself apart from all those who want to go UK US so I said I hope to study in China with bsp exposure as a nice gauge (should be bridge zz). THEN the dhs had to say she was from bsp too. Damn. Okay, but nth wrong with saying that haha. I guess differentiation failed, ended up having a similar background.
Anyway, they asked questions like which foreign devt we found most relevant and would affect us, blah blah.. well and many more mfa type qns. but I guess my answers suck. hope I wont ever see them again in my life LOL. yes, I do understand that means no internship. oh wells, somehow, knowing that I was shortlisted (unlike some zai ppl I know), was kind of comforting :P
So anyway, I realise I have been quite 胸无大志. gotta say sorry to my beloved tchrs who thought to much of me.. I guess it just isn't me to become someone big? maybe make small contributions in my own ways, but probably not the top. I don't feel comfortable. In fact I feel quite uncomfortable. Love talking brainless stuff to two of my closest friends hahaha.
was wondering what I can do in the future. like no employment prospects leh. lol. I really like the idea of opening a book café at somewhere w loads of warm sunlight? sg is actually quite a good place for this haha. or Taiwan. I really want to go Taiwan!! gosh. but anyway I guess opening a café isn't really possible. but I just want to find a break/hols job to learn pao4 coffee and latte art :D it's sth I really want :)
Hm so anyway, I really need to work hard. 9 days left to 1 Nov and so I really shouldn't be here, but felt like I needed to write sth. or type, so to speak. was way sadder just now and so had stuff to write, but then.. talking to two of my lovelys have cheered me up quite a bit, so.. nth much to write now. I'm sorry ): haha.
Okay, so I went for mfa internship interview today.
Thought I would set myself apart from all those who want to go UK US so I said I hope to study in China with bsp exposure as a nice gauge (should be bridge zz). THEN the dhs had to say she was from bsp too. Damn. Okay, but nth wrong with saying that haha. I guess differentiation failed, ended up having a similar background.
Anyway, they asked questions like which foreign devt we found most relevant and would affect us, blah blah.. well and many more mfa type qns. but I guess my answers suck. hope I wont ever see them again in my life LOL. yes, I do understand that means no internship. oh wells, somehow, knowing that I was shortlisted (unlike some zai ppl I know), was kind of comforting :P
So anyway, I realise I have been quite 胸无大志. gotta say sorry to my beloved tchrs who thought to much of me.. I guess it just isn't me to become someone big? maybe make small contributions in my own ways, but probably not the top. I don't feel comfortable. In fact I feel quite uncomfortable. Love talking brainless stuff to two of my closest friends hahaha.
was wondering what I can do in the future. like no employment prospects leh. lol. I really like the idea of opening a book café at somewhere w loads of warm sunlight? sg is actually quite a good place for this haha. or Taiwan. I really want to go Taiwan!! gosh. but anyway I guess opening a café isn't really possible. but I just want to find a break/hols job to learn pao4 coffee and latte art :D it's sth I really want :)
Hm so anyway, I really need to work hard. 9 days left to 1 Nov and so I really shouldn't be here, but felt like I needed to write sth. or type, so to speak. was way sadder just now and so had stuff to write, but then.. talking to two of my lovelys have cheered me up quite a bit, so.. nth much to write now. I'm sorry ): haha.
- Sep 09 Mon 2013 15:46
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Random thoughts
好久好久没上来pixnet了，一上来就看见威妮的照片xD胡宇威来新加坡宣传真爱黑白配耶~~还好不是他们两个一起来，不然我dui2死了。上一次错过韩孝珠T_T 差那么一步。。。gah. 好了，休息多5分钟就得继续读书了。gambatte!
P.S
- Apr 30 Tue 2013 22:29
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明天就是五月了。
好快哦。一转眼就是5月了。
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我想，世上最会拖的人就是我了。因为。。。现在已经5月28日了，标题应该改成就要六月了啊。
其实那时候留着草稿，应该是有什么事情要写的，但我现在忘了，呛。
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我想，世上最会拖的人就是我了。因为。。。现在已经5月28日了，标题应该改成就要六月了啊。
其实那时候留着草稿，应该是有什么事情要写的，但我现在忘了，呛。
- Apr 13 Sat 2013 23:04
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PW Results 2013
很好，很棒。100% A&B, 93.7% A. 历年来最好的。让我忍不住怀疑谣言中的3次调整(moderation)，是不是因为太高了，所以往下调。
只是我的班上有些人没有得到他们应该得到的。很心疼。替他们不值。
但静下心来的感受是，也许这次的失败，好过年底的失败。也许，太久没有尝试失败的滋味，会差点忘记，以为成功是理所当然的。站在太高的位置，太久，会忘记下面的风景，会忘了脚踏实地的感觉，会忘了积极向上的努力，会渐渐地得意忘形，轻敌，然后会停滞。
也许，太多人高兴得太早。忘了这个不是重点，而是起点。接下来的持续努力和用心，才是关键。一个好的开始，就是成功的一半。但应该还有多一句的：成功的另一半，不会随着之前的一半，跟你报道。还是要努力的。尽管最后，可能再努力，还有那么一点机率失败，但还是要付出。因为可能到最后，结果已经不再重要。因为你知道，自己努力过了。不会心虚。
只是我的班上有些人没有得到他们应该得到的。很心疼。替他们不值。
但静下心来的感受是，也许这次的失败，好过年底的失败。也许，太久没有尝试失败的滋味，会差点忘记，以为成功是理所当然的。站在太高的位置，太久，会忘记下面的风景，会忘了脚踏实地的感觉，会忘了积极向上的努力，会渐渐地得意忘形，轻敌，然后会停滞。
也许，太多人高兴得太早。忘了这个不是重点，而是起点。接下来的持续努力和用心，才是关键。一个好的开始，就是成功的一半。但应该还有多一句的：成功的另一半，不会随着之前的一半，跟你报道。还是要努力的。尽管最后，可能再努力，还有那么一点机率失败，但还是要付出。因为可能到最后，结果已经不再重要。因为你知道，自己努力过了。不会心虚。
- Apr 01 Mon 2013 21:42
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四月的。
其实最近有太多太多的话想说，不过东忙西忙，很快又过了一周。三姨突然病倒，在医院。突然觉得，生命太脆弱了。但这种时心里又有把声音自私地庆幸着，我身边最亲的家人，朋友，都还平平安安的。
看来国大华乐演出。那种也想在台上表演的心情平淡了许多。就好像那是很久很久以前的事情一样。不过却多了那份能体会表演者，演奏者心情的那种心。从最初的荣耀，想告诉大家技术的厉害，到享受台上表演的机会，再到开心，因为能够与大家分享那份对音乐的热情，以及那种喜悦。但不管演奏多少次，每一次站在台上，都是兴奋的。心里还是会有股奇妙的感觉。
https://rothluffy.pixnet.net/blog/post/49022580
1 &5!!!!
看来国大华乐演出。那种也想在台上表演的心情平淡了许多。就好像那是很久很久以前的事情一样。不过却多了那份能体会表演者，演奏者心情的那种心。从最初的荣耀，想告诉大家技术的厉害，到享受台上表演的机会，再到开心，因为能够与大家分享那份对音乐的热情，以及那种喜悦。但不管演奏多少次，每一次站在台上，都是兴奋的。心里还是会有股奇妙的感觉。
https://rothluffy.pixnet.net/blog/post/49022580
1 &5!!!!
- Mar 21 Thu 2013 22:01
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双文化研讨会
星期二参加了最后一次的双文化研讨会。
用欣仪的话来说，真的，we have completed the bicul cycle. 真的，中三懵懂，中四假装都听得懂，高一呈现，获奖，得到肯定和荣耀，高二当评论员， goh usher, 和帮头帮尾。以前觉得学长学姐好厉害，现在觉得，原来走这条路，学到了很多，也看见了很多。无可否认，视野开阔了很多，对各领域的看法，视角，和观点，应该比别人好吧? 当usher时听见张教授说，新加坡学生看东西的视角很新，不是说每个新加坡人都很优秀，但他的优秀学生当中，一定有新加坡人。也看见了别的学校的厉害，了解为什么我们学校A水准始终输人家。没有办法，只能更努力，和朋友互相扶持，还有坚持信念，不管是逞强还是坚强，都要达到目标。因为不想后悔遗憾还有哭泣。
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今天去了牙医之后去书局。买文具。用voucher还钱实在太爽。呵呵呵。买了喜欢的东西，所以心情特别好。也和兰州的朋友在微博上讲了话。他们要高考了。好快。我也该努力了，byebye~
用欣仪的话来说，真的，we have completed the bicul cycle. 真的，中三懵懂，中四假装都听得懂，高一呈现，获奖，得到肯定和荣耀，高二当评论员， goh usher, 和帮头帮尾。以前觉得学长学姐好厉害，现在觉得，原来走这条路，学到了很多，也看见了很多。无可否认，视野开阔了很多，对各领域的看法，视角，和观点，应该比别人好吧? 当usher时听见张教授说，新加坡学生看东西的视角很新，不是说每个新加坡人都很优秀，但他的优秀学生当中，一定有新加坡人。也看见了别的学校的厉害，了解为什么我们学校A水准始终输人家。没有办法，只能更努力，和朋友互相扶持，还有坚持信念，不管是逞强还是坚强，都要达到目标。因为不想后悔遗憾还有哭泣。
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今天去了牙医之后去书局。买文具。用voucher还钱实在太爽。呵呵呵。买了喜欢的东西，所以心情特别好。也和兰州的朋友在微博上讲了话。他们要高考了。好快。我也该努力了，byebye~
- Mar 01 Fri 2013 22:42
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2012 A-Level Results
The school did well, but I guess people expected more, including me.
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Talked to Ms Chua today. I miss her so much. Bubbly character, having so much faith in us, and always caring for our welfare other than studies. 当全世界的人都否定我们时，只有她发自内心地相信我们可以的，那么真诚地告诉我们，行的，我们是聪明的。Had tears in my eyes when I talked to her. How my promos went wrong, how all the teachers looked down on us (to some extent, though it might be a strategy but clearly it has gone quite wrong), how I couldn't finish the paper, how teachers expected/thought that I was doing well all along and had no significant problems. For her, for Ms Chong, for those who believe in me, I want to do well, I want to see my name up there when they announce 7 distinctions, and so I need to start putting in true real effort, stop watching dramas during homework time, and start to focus more in class. Things were still okay at the start of the year, but as I get more and more tired, I start to want to give things up. Now, because I can't say I don't like history, because part of me doesn't want to give things up and admit defeat, I want to work harder. And because I don't want to hear people say "humanities people can't do math and sci", because RV is so inherently a math and sci sch, and because so many people taking sci actually want to go into the arts or professional degrees like accountancy, (bloody hell, then why do you take PCME or BCME), and because I hate the tinge of condescending/awkward look when my eyes meet Mr Ong's, I want my math to get an A. I want to show that I will succeed. And for this, I'm going to start working hard.
I don't want to regret. I don't want to cry after receiving my results. I don't want to have to fear, and go back to sch only after everyone has left to collect my results. I want to be able to look back and feel proud of myself. So I guess things have to start NOW.
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Talked to Ms Chua today. I miss her so much. Bubbly character, having so much faith in us, and always caring for our welfare other than studies. 当全世界的人都否定我们时，只有她发自内心地相信我们可以的，那么真诚地告诉我们，行的，我们是聪明的。Had tears in my eyes when I talked to her. How my promos went wrong, how all the teachers looked down on us (to some extent, though it might be a strategy but clearly it has gone quite wrong), how I couldn't finish the paper, how teachers expected/thought that I was doing well all along and had no significant problems. For her, for Ms Chong, for those who believe in me, I want to do well, I want to see my name up there when they announce 7 distinctions, and so I need to start putting in true real effort, stop watching dramas during homework time, and start to focus more in class. Things were still okay at the start of the year, but as I get more and more tired, I start to want to give things up. Now, because I can't say I don't like history, because part of me doesn't want to give things up and admit defeat, I want to work harder. And because I don't want to hear people say "humanities people can't do math and sci", because RV is so inherently a math and sci sch, and because so many people taking sci actually want to go into the arts or professional degrees like accountancy, (bloody hell, then why do you take PCME or BCME), and because I hate the tinge of condescending/awkward look when my eyes meet Mr Ong's, I want my math to get an A. I want to show that I will succeed. And for this, I'm going to start working hard.
I don't want to regret. I don't want to cry after receiving my results. I don't want to have to fear, and go back to sch only after everyone has left to collect my results. I want to be able to look back and feel proud of myself. So I guess things have to start NOW.
- Jan 18 Fri 2013 22:36
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破纪录
虽然只有一圈是破纪录的，不过还是很开心。2.15分钟，从来都没有跑那么快过。是今天体育课时第八圈的timing. ^^
Did warm up (1 round slow jog) and 7 rounds of intervals today. Kinda good I suppose. Clocked in less than 2.50min for most of the rounds. I think it's only one or two that exceeded.
Did warm up (1 round slow jog) and 7 rounds of intervals today. Kinda good I suppose. Clocked in less than 2.50min for most of the rounds. I think it's only one or two that exceeded.
- Jan 16 Wed 2013 18:28
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怀念
今天是57周年校庆。没有为学校感到特别的自豪，但是却看见了历年来校长、校友对学校的良好印象和期望。或者更准确地说，是他们对学校是个“好学校”深信不疑。可能道德很重要，可能他们宁愿我们不是成绩最好的，却要品德高尚。可能我对“好”的定义也慢慢地越来越现实。从小我一直以为，只要做个好人就好，但现实中并不是这样的。没有所谓的好人。也没有所谓的坏人。都是为自己的利益。人在经历了多年的胜负淘汰，天性里面或许就已经信奉达尔文主义了。就像即将要面临的钟曲线一样，是社会残酷的一面。但那不过是残酷的开始。有人赢，就一定要有人输。没有人会希望自己是输的那个，即便会同情弱者。
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其实今天要讲的，不是这些。看见华乐团在台上，从准备到演奏到在掌声中结束，我其实很怀念在台上，与大家一起享受表演的感觉。一个人表演，光芒都是自己的，但一整个团体一起表演，荣誉是属于大家的。那一刻，每个人都很有默契，都尽力，忘情的表演，享受在舞台上的感觉。那种感觉，我很想念。可惜我再也回不到那个时候了。虽然没有后悔离开，却依然会想念在华乐团的日子。这是无法避免的吧。但今天这种怀旧感特别的强烈，不知道为什么。闭上眼，听见了一个个乐器、组别。弦乐组、低音部，我亲爱的cellobass,笙、唢呐、笛子、扬琴、琵琶/弹拨。Mr Wong的指挥。台下只看见他的背影，若在台上，就是看着他的指挥，跟他一起呼吸，跟他一起呈现我们最好的一面给观众。结束，在台下，给予掌声；台上，为顺利表演完松了一口气，此时此刻，是掩饰不住的笑容。
几乎两年没有碰到大提琴了。昨天在洗澡时突然哼起了2011年syf的蝉歌。不知道自己的手，在拿起弓，按在弦上，我还可不可以找回当初的感觉？
